I have been so horrible the past 2 days. I actually stopped and
looked at myself and what I\’ve become and it makes me sick to my
stomach. I have to grow up, because at the rate I\’m going I will
never be happy. Ever. I need to get out of high school
mindset. 2 days ago everything was perfect and then all of a
sudden my entire world has flipped upside down and it\’s not good
anymore. I don\’t even know how to explain it to people because I
don\’t even know what I\’ve done wrong. I think this is my
punishment for every mistake I\’ve ever made. I feel utterly
awful. I want to make everything better, but I don\’t think I
can. I think that the only thing that will make it better is if I
just leave. I don\’t want to leave. I\’m not looking to get
out of this. I think that I am out of this now though. Oh
so alone. So very much alone.
\”I\’m alone in the universe, so alone in the universe.\”