Mood Swings

I\’ve been so moody lately.  Like one minute I\’m perfectly fine and everything is ok.  nothing could be better, and then 5 seconds later I feel sick to my stomach and really sad and depressed and then 10 seconds after that I\’m mad then 3 seconds later i\’m fine again.  It\’s emotionally draining.  I have never really had to deal with all this negative emotion before, because nothing really has ever really hurt me before.  I was thinking about it, and I really think that\’s what it is.  I honestly don\’t think that I have really actually deeply cared about anyone before danny.  He totally opened up my heart and destroyed all my defenses allowing me to experience real love for the first time and actually loving someone….but it also allows me to feel the most hurt I\’ve ever felt in my whole life.  I know that i\’ll be fine eventually, but right now I don\’t really know where I am.  Danny, if you are reading this, I want you to know that I\’m sorry for everything I\’ve done and I forgive you for everything you\’ve done.  Both of us did alot of crazy stuff and it\’s no one\’s fault.  I love you more than I ever knew that I could love someone and it is for that reason that I can let you go, even if it seems like I\’m not doing that.  I know we shouldn\’t be together and that\’s ok.  I\’m still hurt, but only time can heal that.  I want to be friends with you and I\’ve been thinking alot about what you said last night and you really are right.  I\’m sorry that I\’ve been so awful and I know you\’re really stressed, so I just hope you can fully forgive me and we can be friends again, because you really are my best friend.  Honestly.  I love you so much.

\”He works and he builds with his own two hands.  And he pours all he has in a castle made with sand, but the wind and the rain are coming crashing in.  Time will tell just how long his kingdom stands.\”

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