If you\’re reading this, which you obviously are, I would like to ask a sincere favor. Can you keep my family in your prayers? They really need it right now, especially my extended family. I talked to my mother on the phone today for nearly 3 hours. And now I\’m really starting to think about things. Life is hard. I never really thought about it that way. Life is difficult and your constantly making decisions that will impact you for the rest of your life. And through all this thinking, I am reminded again of how the church knows what it\’s talking about. Some say that the church has too many rules and regulations…..they\’re too strict. But the older I get, the more I appreciate the rules and regulations. Even know, I have a renewed sense of appreciation for this. I need this. Almost more than I need bread and water. I need to have the boundaries. They\’re there because He loves us. Just like our parent\’s won\’t let us do whatever we wanted. God is no different. I also started thinking about how I talk alot. I love to talk. So much so, that I find it incredibly hard to listen. Perhaps this is me being self-absorbed or being arrogant…..like I know what\’s going on. In reality. I have no idea what\’s going on. All I know is the very little bit of God\’s plan that\’s happening right now. And even that I can\’t understand. I try to make sense about all of it, but there are so many gray areas. There are so many times where I\’m not sure what to think. I don\’t even know what I\’m saying anymore. I know roughly what I want. very very roughly. And yet, the devil always manages to mess with my head. I\’m sorry if this is a very distracted post, or if you don\’t understand. I don\’t even really understand. I need His peace. I need to pray. I need to pray deep.
“How is it, Lord, that we are cowards in everything save in opposing Thee?” – St. Teresa of Avila