I just want to wish you a very Merry Christmas. I know I haven\’t written anything in forever, what with final exams and papers and grad school applications due at the end of the semester, it is so hard to keep up with everything. So, sadly, some things get neglected.
The last year has totally changed my life and I\’m doing things I never thought I would be able to. I\’m making decisions that will change the course of how my life is going now in the next several months. I have no idea where I will be next year, what I\’ll be doing or who I\’ll be with (although I can guess a little bit on this one <3). In a whirlwind of so much uncertainty, it\’s hard not to get caught up in the stresses of the world. I already have a hard enough time as it is to relax. Growing up sometimes means making big decisions that literally change the direction of your life. That\’s hard for me. Trying to make the best decision takes a lot of effort. Unfortunately, I\’m a little ahead of myself. I have a tendency to anticipate problems and responses long long before they ever occur (if they ever occur). I\’m what you might call a troubleshooter. I envision scenarios in order to help prepare for them…as if you even can.
This all being said, I am going to try desperately to relax over the holidays (especially today as its Christmas) and not think about the future. I will try and be present to my family. I will try and make my boyfriend feel loved. I will try and sleep in peace knowing that I am His delight and He will work everything for His good.
\”This world can wait for one more moment. Go and sleep in peace.\” – MercyMe, Joseph\’s Lullaby